Living with Stage 4 Breast Cancer: Body Image

The emotional roller coaster a cancer diagnosis can cause, is unbelievable in so many ways! I look in the mirror and sometimes wonder... who is this person staring back at me?! I feel like a chrysalis of my former self! The daily challenges of trying to look like yourself, can be extremely exhausting. I laugh at myself constantly! I have to create/carve out eyebrows, because they are fading by the day. I might be lucky and have five lashes to each eye! I have attempted to apply false eyelashes, let's say that didn't workout very well. My wig has become a helmet, that you can't take off until your at home! Especially in the summer! Some days I could just want to, fling it off on to the driveway and run it over! I admire the strong women that can rock and embrace their bald heads! My body will never be the same with all the surgical scars, physical limitations, pain and breast reconstruction process. It can be difficult to grasp the full impact of this disease. You have no idea unless your going through it. I enjoy educating anyone that is willing to listen, it's a true eye opener. This is my life, my story. I have many people say "You look great!" or " You don't look sick!" I take them a compliments, but I am fighting daily for my life. I am a warrior! God gives me my strength! I am so thankful for prayer and positivity. When going through this at least for me, you just want to be normal again. In the end you have to be comfortable in your own skin. Finding your new normal. The new beautiful and stronger you! Embrace each day with a smile and sometimes a tear!